dear jakey, 4 years ago today i was giving birth to you. i still remember what a beautiful time that was. all of it. the contractions, the time spent with daddy excitedly waiting for you, the anticipation of what you would look like...be like. and then the moment was here. the one that changed me forever. my first child. my son. the most beautiful baby i'd ever seen. i will never be able to express to you the feelings i had when i first held you. i cried for what felt like forever. i couldn't put your down. i was obsessed with you. and you know...i still am. you are the the most special boy and i can't even imagine breathing without you.
today you are four. you are the most inquisitive, excitable, happy, curious, friendly, affectionate, funny, creative, imaginative boy ever! you love to learn...you ask questions nonstop and spew random facts that you know about anything to anyone that will listen...even strangers. you have a ton of energy and will go nonstop until you fall asleep. dinosaurs are your current obsession and you know so many of their names, habitats and what they eat. you also love legos, building things, reading books, and puzzles but your favorite is imaginative play with your toys.
you love pizza, raisins, waffles, bacon, rice, chicken nuggets but most of all smoothies. you're a snacker like mommy, so it's hard to get you to sit down and eat a meal. you love to watch movies and snuggle in the bed with mommy and daddy.
you're very tall...the tallest in your preschool class. 42 inches. you're hair is down to your butt and really needs to be cut but daddy won't let me. you still have the most beautiful eyes and lashes and get mistaken for a girl a lot. you always remind them that you're a boy and not "cute", but "cool".
you adore your sister and are the best brother she could ever ask for. she is obsessed with you and always wants to be around you or in your room hanging out. you look out for her and always hug and kiss her and she knows you love her. you remind me of how uncle jason is with me. i love that. you're also really friendly at school, says your teachers. if there is a new student, they look to you to make him/her feel comfortable...and you always do. you have the biggest heart, are very sensitive and always want to do the right thing to make mommy and daddy proud. you always do, son...
today after we finished your special day at Legoland and then Farrell's, you asked me, "mommy, am I still 4?" yes, I said. "mommy, am I still special?" son, you are special every day and just extra special on your birthday. i love you. end of story.
